If you’re THAT emotional over a pet dying you need professional help man.
Im not trying to diminish your feelings, I’m sorry my dude, I feel for you I really do, but you shouldn’t really spiral into a deep depression over a pet.
You obviously have some other shit going on that would make you react that way and therapy will really help, not just with the grieving but understanding yourself.
Edit: just read your other comment. Yeah dude I really hope you are getting the help you need, and I can see how this would make you spiral. Im going through a break up myself rn, so I empathize the pain you felt before. I’m taking meds myself and trying to get through it as I had those same ideations.
You ever need to vent my dude DM me.
You’re right, I’m being very disingenuous